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I Envy

We all envy, more or less. Not everyone's admitting to it, but we all do it.

Even I envy, but I would never envy people that are truly intelligent and exceptional or gifted and talented or people that work honestly to get to their dream. I could never envy those type of people, if I would, I would probably hate myself for it. And even so why would I envy them? For being gifted, intelligent, beautiful, talented or hard working. Somewhere or somehow they were lucky enough that their genetic code developed a great person and I can't envy that, because all I want to do is cheer them on. But like I said, I do envy, because I'm no exception to the rule. And how can I not envy? How can I not be angry? But you surely ask yourself who is it that I'm envious about? Well, you see, I envy the stupid, I envy the ignorant, seeing them smile with no problems at all, doing whatever they are told. I envy them for not asking questions and annoying everyone, I envy the fact that they don…

A Misery's Romance: Chapter IV: Impossible Love

It was Christmas morning, for others afternoon already, and I had no idea on what to do that day. But being lazy didn't help very much since I decided to stay home instead of going with my friends, and the reason wasn't something beautiful like wanting to spend more time with my parents. So I spent Christmas eve doing nothing but playing on the PC, writing lyrics and being overall bored, inspired in writing lyrics but bored. I didn't really have any real hobbies, besides the fact the I was still going to the rugby team, I was in for a year and a half now, three times a week. In rest writing lyrics and casual gaming were then only two things that I would do in the spear time and in summer also football(not american football, real football). The next day we went and met with the whole family at my grandmothers apartment. It's always boring, annoying and the subjects that they always discussed were so useless and clueless it was a pain to listen to them, but luckily I had…

A Misery's Romance: Chapter III: A Sudden Break Up

After all that drama, the next two weeks were only midterms and tests so we couldn't really go out like we used to, be our group would talk through messengers on the internet and games like CS. We were good students, since the teachers put us upfront to answer questions and solving problems during classes after we got the stamp of being the high school alcoholics. But at home we would stay with our notebooks and books in front of us for 2-3 hours doing nothing and then playing on the PC, like every other good student. So even though we couldn't go out, we always kept in touch outside of school. But in those two weeks Paul and Sam tried to convince me to start smoking, of course I always said no, since I didn't see the point of smoking and wasting my money. But it was fun for them to keep trying and teasing me into smoking. But me smoking? That never happened. The midterms passed, but Sam and I didn't pass the math midterm and where left failing math for the first seme…